Ehh, I have a Tumblr that I use way more than this. And although this was good to post to since nobody would actually read my posts (except for in the beginning. Elle used to leave comments. So yeah, if you read this, thanks Elle-chan. :3 <3), I don't need it anymore.
My friend Eve tells me it's stupid to try and keep everything inside, and that writing is a good way to get it off your mind, which is why I used this in the first place. Buuut...
I don't agree. (>x-x<) It makes me sound like an emo or something, lol.
So yeah. Happy tumblr is happy. ~~~~
See you later, LJ. Even though you weren't used for much, the few good fleeting memories are still there. Maybe i'll come back someday with a clean account; start off fresh. Until then, sayounara.
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Not feeling too well today. Not sure why-- I was like this yesterday, too. I just have this bad feeling for some reason. You know like, right before you're about to fall off your bike? Or before you have to go on stage in front of tons of people to make a big speech? Sort of like a mix of the two. Bad and jittery. (Could just be my imagination, but since it's been two days, i'm getting little worried. ._." I've been eating and sleeping fine...oh well).
Finally...FINALLY working on a fanfic (haven't even attempted to write one in forever)! It's a Sonic fanfic though, so most of my friends won't really care about it. ^^;; That's why i'll probably just post the link on SoAH Forums instead once i've finished it.
*sigh* Stress stress stress, that's all I ever do. ~ And it's the same for my family and friends. I know they all have a lot on their minds right now. Which is why, of course, I decided to stay optimistic and be the one to cheer them up! <3 But I feel like i'm just being too much of a hypocrite these days. ^^;; Ahah.
Guess i'll go ahead and get on skype in a sec, since I promised Ty i'd message him today. Hopefully skyping will get my mind off of everything.
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- Mood:
worried - Music:Dreams Of An Absolution [Fandub]
I finally made up my mind that whatever career I decide to pursue, it has to be something that I enjoy, but isn't one of my hobbies. Whenever I try to focus on just one of the things I enjoy, my mind tends to wander to the point that, I no longer am I paying any attention to whatever it is I was doing.
Examples would be: Me working on a drawing, then suddenly thinking of a great animation to go with it, so I start working on a flipnote. Then suddenly getting the inspiration for a piano composition of one of my OC Theme's, then taking a break, but getting distracted by reading a good book or playing poker. But theeen I get the idea for a good story, but shortly after starting the story, I remember something I needed to do on KHM-- it just goes on and on. And the fact that I love and enjoy so many things would make this endless list even longer if I continued.
So it will be much easier if I keep my promise and start up a family-run buisness with mom. It's for a good cause, and we'll be helping others who suffer from severe food allergies in the process-- that is, if everything goes well and this 'buisness' works out. I'm pretty sure it will.
Plus I really do enjoy baking, and I put effort and heart into what I do, but I wouldn't neccesarily say it's one of my hobbies. So it works out perfectly. (Not to mention it means i'll be able to stick around home and make sure the house doesn't go to heck. If I went to college, and my brothers had to rely on my mother...I can only imagine. So it's better if I keep myself in the picture. I'll still be able to study, but with the reassurance of having a somewhat secure job.)
So I guess that's it. No more sleepless nights over the topic that's haunted me ever since I was still a child (yeah, I thought about this sort of stuff pretty early on in life. I figured it would help me out later if I got a headstart, but it actually was more of a hindrance).
Now that just leaves a few unsolved topics...one of those being a certain person. But I pretty much give up on that one. If it happens, it happens. I can't waste my time thinking about stupid stuff like that. Better to focus on work, studying and keeping in contact with my friends.
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- Mood:
calm - Music:【東方Vocal】【東方萃夢想】SOUND HOLIC - A long long time ago
I'm in such an amazing mood today. ~★ (Not that that's really any different from every other day. lol)
And this is even despite the fact I woke up this morning to find out more bad news. (Seems like every time I turn around, something else bad has happened. After all these years, I don't really doubt that it's either me, or just the family itself that's cursed.)
My grandmother supposedly has some sort of disease-- but even the doctor's don't know for sure. They're just guessing (and it's not life-threatening).
Family is very skeptical about it, since my grandmother has always loved attention. Bascially, she enjoys when bad things happen to her, because other people pay more attention to her (as sick and unbelievable as that sounds, it's true), so she does her best to make things sound worse than they actually are.
I'll still pray for her (i'm not heartless), but if anything, my grandfather is in worse shape. He's been out to the hospital a few times in the past few weeks. He has diabetes, and is 80 years old. Even before my grandmother (who is much younger; only 53 years old) found out about her illness, she didn't want to take care of my grandfather. And so he's been in really bad shape. :< I'm really worried about him.
The other bad news is...my dad got his job transfer to Florida. Buuut we have 3 weeks to pack our entire house and FIND a house to live in (Yeah...we don't even currently have a house to move into. That's the only thing that's scaring me).
So we'll see how that goes. ._."
More bad news? Nah. That's all for now. And hopefully that's the last bad news i'll hear for the next few days, at least. I'm at the edge. Please god, pleeeease don't push me off.
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- Music:Tenjou wo Kakeru Monotachi - Love Planet Five ~I've Special Unit~
Gotta love Touhou/Toho/Tohou. (Speaking of which...it gets so confusing sometimes, since there are so many ways to spell it. I usually just say Touhou. :x)
Well yesterday sure was interesting. The power went out for a few hours. x.x My brothers' hate the dark...but as for me...MUAHA-- *cough* I mean...teehee. c: Lol, well I just worked on my anime series on my DSi. Luckily my DSi had a good enough amount of battery life, that it lasted me the whole duration of the power failure.
Speaking of which, I really need to decide if i'm serious about finishing my anime series this time. I can't just quit like last time and leave my fans in the dark. :x
It's just that with the way everything has been, one minute, i'm working on chapter 1: part 5, and the next, i'm cooking dinner and feeding the dog. With my mind on so many things, my heart isn't focused on doing any one thing...which sucks. It's so irritating to feel 100% motivated and ready to work, and the next, feeling like i'm drained and not wanting to do anything. sajfladwjf;wejf;ewjf
Well, w/e. I'll just force myself to keep going for now. And when my motivation comes back, i'll gladly take advantage of it. >:3
Buuut right now, I have some work to do for KHM. So I guess it's time to look up some more Touhou remixes on youtube. It's gonna be a looong night.
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- Mood: sleepy
- Music:Hoshiku no Sora - Mami Kawada
Gah, I can't focus on anything today!! >^<
It's mostly because...well, never mind. Better not to say anything in case certain people read this. ^^;; But I will say it's due to a certain someone that I kind of sort of like. lol
But despite my lack of focus, i've been studying like crazy. Inbetween breaks, i'll take out my tablet and work on my sketches (it gives my mind a quick break. And gives it time to process all of the new information, before filling it with more new information). But i'm still stuck, no matter what I do! If I focus on my work, i'm ignoring my friends. But I know I kind of have to. -sigh- This is sort of why I knew joining forums would be a mistake-- well, yes but no. \confused *dies*
Buuuut sitting here and writing all this won't help. I'll get back to work. ~
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P.S. I finished my "Smile for Japan" Flipnote today! ^w^ I hope someone in Japan is able to watch it and smile. Even if it's only a single person. I still hope so.
- Mood:
working
Today was a pretty good day (despite the fact i'm in quite a bit of pain from my orthodontist visit this morning, ahah). ~
I bought Pokemon White the first day it came out, but on that day, I also got... a brand new, slim, flat screen HD tv! <3 No more big, bulky, noisy tv from the 80's (literally. My mom has had it for years.) taking up all that room on my entertainment center! And no more of that horrible defeaning noise that it made for a good fifteen minutes after being turned on. Ahh, my ears feel better already~
I mean, I don't watch cable much anymore, but I am a gamer. So the tv itself gets quite a bit of use.
As for Pokemon, my brothers both have Black, so it's really fun to play together; especially with all of the new comunication features. And White is Ah-maaaazing. I love it. <333 Although I will say that it doesn't feel quite right...something feels...off about it. It doesn't quite have that classic Pokemon feel. But I truthfully didn't really expect it to feel the same, since it's a new generation, and they took a whole different approach to the way they constructed the storyline.
Still, different can be good. And in this case, I don't think it's that bad. Alsooooo, N = <333
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- Music:Lions! - Lights
Pfffft, I already wrote everything out and feel better. No need to keep the old post and draw attention to my personal issues.
I'll figure everything out on my own in due time. ♥
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- Mood:
contemplative - Music:Hishoku no Sora - Mami Kawada
Snickerdoodles! <3 Just made a batch! :3 They're really good. <3
Been re-watching Black Cat ( ahhh Train-kun <33 ), and Tsubasa ( ahh Syaroan-kun <33 ).
Seriously need to work on my entry for SotW 7. ;~;
( Since the theme is Red, Green & Blue, i'm making a pokemon sig with Charmander, Bulbasaur and Squirtle. :3 )
And my Deviantart account is feeling sad.
But I haven't been able to post up any new stuff since my scanner has been acting up. :c
Disney in less than thirty days! <3
And then I have the Comic Con & Anime Fest to look forward to when I get back.
( Too bad for Ty that his plane won't make it. Teehee. )
Halloween is also approaching.
I'll probably just wear my Kairi cosplay, and attend the GWL Halloween party. lol
Hmm, I should also be working on 100 Acre Wood character articles, and my story "Lost Memories".
Not to mention my ( still ) extremely long lst of drawing requests desu
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Can't believe I missed the LIGHTS concert. ;~;
Also working on a fandub of Tales of Vesperia: The First Strike.
Still need someone to do Yuri, Flynn, Karol and Raven's voices though, lol.
This has been a pretty long entry desu
I'll talk about more stuff next time...desu
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- Mood: cheerful
- Music:Super Driver - Cristina Vee
Soooo...a lot has been going on lately. ( Which is the reason why I haven't posted anything on here in a while. Heh. )
KHMedia has been doing good.
We've gotten more members, and activity over the past few months.
I did catch a cold a few days ago, and I still have it, actually.
But it should go away soon so no worries, right? :3
Hmm, what else...well lately i've been pretty addicted to anything Touhou or Tales of Vesperia related. <3
And i've also started re-watching the first season of Haruhi Suzumiya, so that way i'll be refreshed for when I go to the NYC Anime Fest and see the Disappearence of Haruhi Suzumiya movie.
Really can't wait for NYC Comic Con and Anime Fest. <3
It's going to be almost as amazing as the Utada concert. ( Nothing could ever be more amazing than that concert, lol sorry )
Also finished reading .hack//Alcor today.
It was a cute and short manga. :3
I guess that's all for now!
Hopefully i'll be writing entries in here more often. ~
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- Music:Bad Apple - Cristina Vee
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